Inside Looking Out

I was pondering the different emotions prior to my salvation... and the struggles with being in the chains of sin versus.. my New Birth in righteousness. As it says in scripture, we will be persecuted and have many struggles for his namesake. John 16:33; 2 Timothy 3:12; Mathew 10:22. This reality bites you that you have spent your whole life messing things up, and now Messiah steps into your life and he comes to clean it up one baby step at a time. You see the OLD MAN STRIPPING AWAY... the fear, the unforgiveness, anger, confusion... you begin to ask questions and really start to seek Answers by digging into the scripture. Once Messiah circumcises your heart, well it's a personal treasure you kind of want to guard your heart. But then Messiah reminds you that you are a light to the world. So, you have to do the impossible by FAITH. The unforgiven soul looks out of the prison windows anticipating freedom, then the forgiven soul is set free and looking out into the world, being equipped to fight the good fight. Its not any easier, we spent our whole life holding it in, now we have to prepare to release it, come what may, no fear, just fly.

I was always on the outside looking in Not quite sure how to begin Holding all of my heart inside Bursting at the seams Crying on the inside Internally holding dreams You know my emotions You always talked me down Speaking love and restoration Encouraging me to come around How could I understand All that you set me out to accomplish I feel so small in your world Even though its you I admonish Now Im on the inside looking out Its very different in this place Holding all my heart inside Bursting at the seams Praying on the inside Internally holding dreams Ready to release them No longer can I hide Counting on your strength To carry my abilities Higher, and higher Gifts to be lifted Love to be endured Courage to be shifted Amazing love how can it be You died for me I'm on the inside looking out At all you did for me.